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He came into my life unexpectedly.
Sorta like a movie, you know, the kind that leaves you
with little tears about to fall from your eyes. A huge
lump in your throat, and inspiration. A drive that makes
you so sure you will find love out there. (Wishful
thinking?)
We met on the internet. I can already hear the peanut
gallery's snide remarks and deftly dealt blows to my
intelligence, my morals, my thoughts. After all, I must
be crazy, and he must be an axe murderer right? I must
be desperate, after all, to fall in love with a man over
the internet. No, none of the above. (You pessimists
just have to chalk this one up to a loss!) He is the
most caring, compassionate man I have ever met. And I
can say that with all honesty, with all truths freely
tossed into the lion's den for approval.
At first, I wasn't expecting it to
happen. Wasn't looking for it. But I wasn't against it.
I was open to it sub-consciously I suppose. Searching
for that fairy tale somewhere, my internal thoughts
caught up with the rest of science and dove into
technology as well. I had heard so much about it
happening to real life people like me, from places in
the world I had never heard of, but it happened! I had
talked to him on and off through way of chat rooms for
about a year. In this year, I didn't get to know him
really. Except the fact that he seemed like a really
nice guy. He intrigued me. Maybe it was this portal into
another realm we were both opening up. Making it harder
to not talk. It's all you can do, just type out your
inner most thoughts, and delight in the very thought of
making a 'friend' online.
We started talking, and I wanted to know more about him.
I got excited when I saw his name in my e-mail inbox.
Even happier I was when replying to him. I was pouring
myself out to this stranger, and he was responding.
Giving of himself more and more each time he hit Send,
as was I.
In this chat room, we had 'mutual friends'. Other people
that regularly chatted and with whom shared a bond with
us. We knew each other's names, who had kids, each
other's love lives, or lack thereof, and who was
allergic to what. A kinship was born in this chat room,
but all of that was irrelevant as I asked this other
chatter, "What's his phone number?" I asked, he gave. I
called him that night.
Our phone conversation was great. I was attracted
immediately by his voice. He was feeling the same way
about mine. But there had to be more, right? There just
has to be! I was thirsting for more information from
him. I simply wanted to know everything about this man.
We had seen each other's pictures already, sent through
the wonderful e-mail services. Our eyes glanced upon
each other's pictures and saw a promising something
there. We liked each other at this point. Promises to
call each other were made, and more e-mails were sent.
Finally, we fell in love. Just like that. Fell. Head
over heels. And I can say this, without hesitation, that
I fall in love with this man more and more every day.
When I hear his voice, BAM, I fall in love again. When I
look into his eyes, BAM, I'm in love again. Anything
this man does equates to pure, sweetened love for me. Of
course, there's a loop hole. Isn't there always? We are
long distance. I represent the East Coast, and he the
West. Was it possible, is it possible? Yes and yes. We
talked endlessly about this. Tip toed around the fact
that it would be hard, but took into the account that it
wouldn't be easy. Pored over every obstacle that would
stand in our way, and would eventually test us and our
strength, had we gotten together.
We talked about our wants, our needs, our desires at
this time. What we wanted from each other, and how we
could go about it. We knew all we wanted was to be
together, but could we handle it? Were we ready to take
on something so rough? We have. Overcoming the distance,
the money issues, the conversation issues, well, it
hasn't been easy. But we don't think any relationship is
a bed of roses. We take the good, and the bad, and we
still love each other.
Through this love we have grown stronger. We have
learned from each other. We have taken our relationship
beyond the levels of just something we got 'off the
internet'.
Meeting was like a dream. I was absolutely on pins and
needles. Seeing him though, only reinstated my previous
feelings I had felt for him, and made them that much
stronger. Love at first sight? Oh, it happened alright.
We have shared so many times together. His presence
completes me. The lost piece to my puzzle. The one thing
that I can hold onto in this world. The one relationship
I have ever felt love from. He loves me. Plain and
simple. With my flaws and all. He sees the good in me,
and I can see it in him. I have found my true
connection. Without him, I'd simply be searching for
something that couldn't give me what he gives me. It
would only be false, and I know this to be of truth,
because for once in my life, my heart feels what my head
does, and their both in sync. I'm loving every minute of
it.
When you hear the proverbial warnings of finding
anything reliable on the internet, scoff away the
remarks. It can happen, it has happened. When you hear
the woes of love tales gone sour, just know that love is
alive. It is all around us, and it will find you when
you least expect it. And in the last place you would
ever think of finding it.
You have two choices now:
1. Delete this.
2.
Click here to send this page to a friend!
Hope you will choose 2. I did.

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